The Daily Prompt has been popping up in my blog reader for a long time now, but I’ve never made the time to respond to it. Today’s was different, though. It made me think of a big life decision that I’ve spent the last few years wrestling with. Writing my response to it made me see that I’ve actually already made up my mind about what I’m going to do. I just hadn’t realised it.
So, in response to the Daily Prompt “tell us about something you would try if you were guaranteed not to fail (and tell us why you haven’t tried it yet),” here’s what I’d do: I’d jump.
I’m standing at the edge. My heels are firmly planted but my toes extend into the whisper of space between one life and another. Here I am, wondering whether to jump.
The first life I know, it’s mine, it is me. The other could be mine, is already becoming mine, I think. But on the other side the road is hazier. If – when – I jump it will be a harder road, of that I am sure.
If you could stand beside me and reassure me that in jumping I am not leaving this first life behind completely, then I would do it right now.
If you could hold my hand and tell me that everything in this other life will turn out just fine, I’d go right this minute.
If you could promise me that,even if it doesn’t everything will still turn out just fine, I’d be over that gap in an instant.
But wait a minute. You’re already there beside me, holding my hand. I already know these things to be true.
So it looks like I’m jumping, then.